- Then & Now Project: The journey from “I do” to “I don’t” to “what now” is complicated. This project shares snippets from my book – taken from my journal then. These posts reveal pieces of the journey in a “that was then, this is now” format with my posting days matching journal entry days. (Sort of a time-fusion.) I hope this project focus will offer food for thought in your own life – whether you do, don’t or might. XO
ON ANGEL’S WINGS
Spirit Dialog & Journal, March 4, 1994 • “The pain is intense. I keep trying to remind myself that this is pain for what may come, not pain for this very second. This very second, Ray is in bed. Moments before, I lay in his arms. Awake. Trying to keep my mind from racing to the time when he will not be here.”
2010: I had no sooner finished writing those words when, to my surprise, I found myself scribing these!
“Let go. Let go. Trust God. That’s all you truly have, Bernadette … if you are to live through this pain, you must use every tool you have ever learned to stay in the moment. … We know you wanted to dump your feelings on paper here, but nothing new would have been written this morning. More important than your knowing the connection, is your accepting the connection with us. We are here.”
We are here?
“Trust your Father. Give Ray to Him. Give yourself to Him. You could go no further this way, singularly nor as a couple. Drastic measures are necessary because your aspirations are high. Let go and this will greatly accelerate the lesson.”
“Perhaps she [the other woman] is someone you love dearly who would offer this gift, this challenge for you and Ray to know your true Selves. So think on that.”
Think on that? OUCH!
We are here? Surrender. A NOW decision.
Lesson? Trust. A NOW decision.
Think on that? Reframe. A NOW decision.
None of which I could do at that time. But it was GOD (Good Orderly Direction) and more than a few of His Angels that guided me to where I am today.
LISTEN. Do you hear the flutter of Angels’ wings?
What does it take to capture your attention? Where are you with surrender? Trust? Reframing? Feel free to share your thoughts.
- About This Post: I’m attempting to merge the nine months recorded in Bernadette’s Pages with the present here – but still can’t figure out how to format it in a neat and tidy way. So, it’s probably going to be raw and choppy in places. I’ll throw in some quotes and bullets to guide you along. If I lose you somewhere, let me know. I’ll come back to get you.
- If you landed in the middle of this project: Click here to start at the beginning!
The Messy Room and my Facebook Page are two ways that I share the “HOW” of it! Please join me and SPREAD THE WORD. You CAN get here from there!
Excerpts ©2006 from Bernadette’s Pages: An Intimate Crossroad
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