- Then & Now Project: Tramal (Ultram) For Sale, The journey from “I do” to “I don’t” to “what now” is complicated. This project shares snippets from my book – taken from my journal then. These posts reveal pieces of the journey in a “that was then, Tramal (Ultram) from mexico, this is now” format with my posting days matching journal entry days. (Sort of a time-fusion.) I hope this project focus will offer food for thought in your own life – whether you do, don’t or might. XO
WRITING UNDER FIRE
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2010: Ever do that. Set a dream aside – for whatever reason. Buy Tramal (Ultram) without prescription, “Day after day, putting in my time for that someday when … we would be free to play and express who we truly are – together – as a couple. … He faults me that I could not lighten up … He needed me to be the heavy, and then had the audacity to believe that I was capable of being no more than a caretaker, where can i cheapest Tramal (Ultram) online. Tramal (Ultram) For Sale, He is running as fast as he can into the arms of a woman who would be for him all that I am not. Damn. I want to play, Tramal (Ultram) without a prescription, be spontaneous, adventurous – but who has the time or energy?”
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"God, help me to be in the moment and grasp that which has beauty and gives pleasure. Help me to be grateful for the goodness still present in my life.”
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Tramal (Ultram) For Sale, 2010: I wonder; had I NOT done all that writing that day, would I have been open to or even noticed that moment.
- Post Number Six: March 9th was obviously a busy writing day. Nine entries. All of them foundational. If I were to sum up today’s post it would be about the long-term advantages of writing under fire. If you would like to know more about the process I used you can go to my Companion Guide and bookmark the page for later. (It’s time for you to get up and refresh your coffee!)
- A Funny Thought: If I could go back in time, right now, Tramal (Ultram) For Sale. Well, you already know where I would go and what I would do.
- About This Post: I’m attempting to merge the nine months recorded in Bernadette’s Pages with the present here – but still can’t figure out how to format it in a neat and tidy way. So, it’s probably going to be raw and choppy in places. I’ll throw in some quotes and bullets to guide you along. If I lose you somewhere, let me know. I’ll come back to get you.
- If you landed in the middle of this project: Click here to start at the beginning!
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