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Two Wings to Fly. • Visual journal page by Bernadette Rose Smith Whenever I find myself in a tug-of-war with a challenge, this bible story about Jacob on his way to Canaan comes to mind.
“And a man wrestled with him until the breaking of the day. Then he said, “Let me go, for the day has broken.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” And he said to him, “What is your name?” And he said, “Jacob.” Then he said, “Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, for you have striven with God and with men, and have prevailed.” Then Jacob asked him, “Please tell me your name.” But he said, “Why is it that you ask my name?” And there he blessed him.”
I am not a biblical scholar and am not going to venture into all the rich layers of metaphor I can relate to in this simple story, but I do know a lot about challenges and turning to Divine Guidance for help. One of the places I wrestle with angels is in my journal. A lot of dialoging goes on in those pages. Blessing and blasting interchangeably linked. I was putting away some older journals recently, when I browsed across this entry from September 11, 2013.
“The confusion between what I thought was my reality and what I actually saw unfold before me was a gift from God. And my wrestling with it created an angel, in a way. Maybe that which we wrestle with becomes angelic energy. Maybe we are not wrestling with angels to bless us when challenged but making angels – and that blesses us.”
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